“According to Greek Mythology, humans were originally created with four arms, four legs and a head with two faces. Fearing their power, Zeus split them into two separate beings, condemning them to spend their lives in search of their other halves.”
-Plato
I love Greek mythology. I love Greek mythology because it gives life and meanign to things we can't explain. Plato's story of two people forced to wander the stars looking for each other has an ability to capture that feeling of lost love.
I think it captures the essence of loneliness.
In my mind,
lately, I have felt lost. Due to my recent roller-coaster of a relationship; Maybe
I just can't imagine someone being able to love me unconditionally. Or has
love become, like this story, a myth? Is there even a point in trying? Is there really? To be able to
fully give yourself over to someone and let them see every part of you; is it
really worth the heart break in the end? Because it seems to me that it all
ends in heartbreak;
I distinctly remember the feeling of realizing the person you
love no longer love you back. “I never loved you…This was all a mistake” Those
words replay in my head every time I start to feel okay again. I’m not some huge
wreck who can’t leave her house, but I am in a stage where I don't know
really know what to do anymore. I feel extremely lost. I gave up a
large part of my life for someone and look where it got me? It feels like
it was all a dream; like it was another life.
I would never wish that feeling upon anyone.
No one deserves to feel like that; to feel that love is just a distant dream
that can never be achieved; at such a young age, empty and broken. I look
around at the relationships that surround me today and I cannot even begin to
understand how they work. I look at my best friends falling in love and I can't help
but want to scream at them "None this is real!”
Because to me right now; it’s not.
I’m not in any place to want to love
somebody right now. That just were I am right now. I feel very stuck. It has
taken me a long time to be okay with that. For the first time in a long time I
am okay with being alone. Sometimes you need to be alone for a while to be able
to find yourself again. Plato said that “Every heart sings a song, incomplete, until another heart whispers back.
Those who wish to sing always find a song. At the touch of a lover, everyone
becomes a poet." That’s
what I am doing right now.
I am trying to sing a song again.
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